Today I have been discharged by the Mental Health Team, after 3 months of regular contact and follow up. We discussed what I should look out for in a future relapse. The things I wrote down in here a few entries ago. She will write to my GP and tell her the things that willContinue reading “Out on my own in the world”
Today I cried (inside) But this time the tears came because I am happy! The difference in 6 weeks is incredible. I feel energised, excited, content. Hopeful, fulfilled, relaxed…and all the other positive emotions I can’t think of right now. I no longer feel restless, desperate and miserable. If you’d have told me then thatContinue reading “Happy”
Session 3 was a couple of days ago and again focussed on relationships and how to deal with my emotions. Current issues:I Change who I am so that People will like meI Go for the wrong type of GuyI am unable to lift the mask on my feelings Warning signs for me spiralling into worseningContinue reading “Session 3”
Often when talking about what’s happened over the past couple of years I feel like it’s not my life I’m talking about, like it’s some tragic plot in a sad film. I forget just how much I’ve been through in such a short space of time. Although I’m not superstitious, often I wonder whether thatContinue reading “Recap”
Today is all we have.
We can have a loose plan for the future, but today is what really matters.
…”concerned chiefly with one’s own personal profit or pleasure.” Adj. Definitions from Oxford Languages I spent my life trying to placate those around me, giving in to others’ wishes and wants, and always putting myself behind everyone else. I don’t understand why I developed this habit, I guess it was in order not to RockContinue reading “Be More Selfish”
Healthy boundaries can serve to establish one’s identity. Specifically, healthy boundaries can help people define their individuality and can help people indicate what they will and will not hold themselves responsible for. https://positivepsychology.com/great-self-care-setting-healthy-boundaries I won’t over-plan my days; I will ensure I spend time for myself – self care/learning Norwegian/yoga/gym. It is not OK toContinue reading “Boundaries”
Today is properly one of the first days since The Event and preceding months that I feel like myself. I managed to get up, go paddle-boarding BY MYSELF, sort out OH admin, phone people, 1.5hours of Norwegian lessons AND ALSO go to the gym. I’m so proud of how far I’ve come, given a weekContinue reading “Road to Recovery”
The most obvious: Any medication change – I’m at risk for weeks after a change in Medication, no matter how good I feel after the first week Isolating myself from people over a period of weeks Making new relationships very quickly e.g. friends/guys and not communicating with my normal support network Filling ALL my timeContinue reading “Triggers/Signs that I’m going Down”
Today’s meeting was stressful but helpful.I’ll need to jump through so many hoops. First – obtain sick note, agree to referrals to OH and counselling and therapySecond – take time out for me, until at least 7th August. Third – I NEED TO GO LOOK AFTER MY PLANTS so Dad and I are going onContinue reading “Moving Forward”